Stop talking like you know anything about me or even care.
[It's not like they're friends.
But there's a lot of things she wants to ask? What would he suggest that she do then? What is expected of her? She doesn't want to sit around and be forced to ruminate on things that she doesn't have answers for.]
[... He...doesn't care, that much is true (right?). And he doesn't really-- no, that's not true, he does know quite a bit about her at this point, and there's no escaping that fact.
Just as she knows a lot about him, too.
It's a little frightening, honestly. It was information that should never have gotten out, but because of those damned mirrors--]
I do know about you, just as you know more than you should about me. Do not pretend otherwise.
What you know from before has nothing to do with the situation as it is now.
{Except.
That's another lie, even if it's one that she's not consciously telling. Of course Yona's disappearance will affect her emotionally, especially when her last memories of home were that she had signed up to die for the other girl. Now it just feels like more failure that she's gone again.
It's not a good feeling. She's not emotionally sound.
Don't be ridiculous. What I know from before has an impact on every situation you are involved in, just as it is the case for me.
[Just as he, too, has every single experience tainted by the fact that he died, that he betrayed Stahn and the others, that he gave his life for Stahn and the others--
So, too, is every one of Lili's experiences affected by the fact that Yona is so important to her that she'd give her life for her.
They both know it, so Leon fails to see any reason to pretend otherwise.]
So what do you propose I do then, if you're in the mood to preach and pretend that you understand me?
[Which is said with a little bit more bite - but the fact that she even cares about Leon's opinion remains. She'd asked him the initial question to figure out what he'd do. How he'd feel.
Turns out that she's the only one actually dealing with it and she isn't sure what her next step should be.]
More of a statement of fact than any sort of judgment that she intends, but following that she does place her CereVice on the table face down before curling in on herself.
In a distant way, she can acknowledge that Leon.... cares, if only a little bit. Cares enough to let her know if he sees Yona, because she's distressed without her. But... she also doesn't think that it's fair to keep bothering him any more than she already has.]
[He knows the end of a conversation when he sees one. Ultimately, in the end, he doesn't think he was able to help her at all--
But maybe that's for the better. Because Leon doesn't know how to help people like Lili, and for all of her talk of staying by his side and making sure he's not alone, maybe now she'll realize she's better off without hanging on to people like him.
Perhaps.
Either way, he'll let the conversation lie, and he won't bother to try to respond.]
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Because Lili's just going to blink a little bit at that before answering a little defiantly (and untruthfully, just out of her pride this time).]
My emotional state is fine.
[Liar.]
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[That comes back immediately. He knows better, after all. Leon's been there himself, but....
For some reason, it's hard to let this go. And then, a little more slowly but nonetheless following after:]
I do not require you to share your feelings with me, but acknowledge that you are not yourself so as to not put yourself and others to trouble.
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[It's not like they're friends.
But there's a lot of things she wants to ask? What would he suggest that she do then? What is expected of her? She doesn't want to sit around and be forced to ruminate on things that she doesn't have answers for.]
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Just as she knows a lot about him, too.
It's a little frightening, honestly. It was information that should never have gotten out, but because of those damned mirrors--]
I do know about you, just as you know more than you should about me. Do not pretend otherwise.
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{Except.
That's another lie, even if it's one that she's not consciously telling. Of course Yona's disappearance will affect her emotionally, especially when her last memories of home were that she had signed up to die for the other girl. Now it just feels like more failure that she's gone again.
It's not a good feeling. She's not emotionally sound.
But that's too pathetic for her to accept.]
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[Just as he, too, has every single experience tainted by the fact that he died, that he betrayed Stahn and the others, that he gave his life for Stahn and the others--
So, too, is every one of Lili's experiences affected by the fact that Yona is so important to her that she'd give her life for her.
They both know it, so Leon fails to see any reason to pretend otherwise.]
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[Which is said with a little bit more bite - but the fact that she even cares about Leon's opinion remains. She'd asked him the initial question to figure out what he'd do. How he'd feel.
Turns out that she's the only one actually dealing with it and she isn't sure what her next step should be.]
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If he knew what to do, wouldn't he have already told her?]
Don't deny that that is the case.
[That's...all he can really say, there.
Because... he does understand.
Even if he doesn't know what to say, he doesn't understand.]
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When Lili knows in a heartbeat that if it meant knowing that Yona was safe somewhere, she would put herself in danger. Immediately.]
You've already said that.
I just want answers.
[Though the second text only comes after a bit of a pause.]
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He doesn't like it either, but...]
I do not have any answers for you.
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That's fine. You have done enough.
[Which is.
More of a statement of fact than any sort of judgment that she intends, but following that she does place her CereVice on the table face down before curling in on herself.
In a distant way, she can acknowledge that Leon.... cares, if only a little bit. Cares enough to let her know if he sees Yona, because she's distressed without her. But... she also doesn't think that it's fair to keep bothering him any more than she already has.]
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But maybe that's for the better. Because Leon doesn't know how to help people like Lili, and for all of her talk of staying by his side and making sure he's not alone, maybe now she'll realize she's better off without hanging on to people like him.
Perhaps.
Either way, he'll let the conversation lie, and he won't bother to try to respond.]