[it makes him feel strangely warm to hear that coming from leon. leon, who has always been strict with him. leon, who has always pushed their agenda and got mad when they started to lose focus. leon, who not long ago would have engaged in a blow-out argument for even suggesting something like that.
there's something good about it, he knows. somewhere along the way, leon has come to understand a bit about how stahn is, how he thinks and what he needs to in order to carry on. making connections with others, trying to help the people around him, and seeking reasons to smile when everything seems to damning is stahn's way. and leon isn't trying to push him into some other mold. so maybe that's why there's that warmth that spreads in his chest a little, that makes him feel like this is nothing less than the exact reason why he's been so keep to keep his faith in leon and call him "best friend" despite everything.
but despite that, there's something about it that feels so empty. he's accepting this from leon, but that's all it is, right? it's an offer. leon isn't doing the same for himself, and the truth of the matter is that for all the people he's come to care about in cerealia, leon is still the most important person here to him. leon is still someone he wants to see get to enjoy the new lease on life. leon is the one who needs to fill his time with things he enjoys, too.
in the end, stahn can't be selfish about it. even when he's at his darkest moments and his more selfish tendencies rise to the surface... leon's well-being is too important to him.]
I... hope you'll do the same. There are lot of things to enjoy, and a lot of good people... so you should fill your time with things you like too.
...Not just trying to find a way to get me back home. [do something for yourself, leon. please. live a little bit.]
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[it makes him feel strangely warm to hear that coming from leon. leon, who has always been strict with him. leon, who has always pushed their agenda and got mad when they started to lose focus. leon, who not long ago would have engaged in a blow-out argument for even suggesting something like that.
there's something good about it, he knows. somewhere along the way, leon has come to understand a bit about how stahn is, how he thinks and what he needs to in order to carry on. making connections with others, trying to help the people around him, and seeking reasons to smile when everything seems to damning is stahn's way. and leon isn't trying to push him into some other mold. so maybe that's why there's that warmth that spreads in his chest a little, that makes him feel like this is nothing less than the exact reason why he's been so keep to keep his faith in leon and call him "best friend" despite everything.
but despite that, there's something about it that feels so empty. he's accepting this from leon, but that's all it is, right? it's an offer. leon isn't doing the same for himself, and the truth of the matter is that for all the people he's come to care about in cerealia, leon is still the most important person here to him. leon is still someone he wants to see get to enjoy the new lease on life. leon is the one who needs to fill his time with things he enjoys, too.
in the end, stahn can't be selfish about it. even when he's at his darkest moments and his more selfish tendencies rise to the surface... leon's well-being is too important to him.]
I... hope you'll do the same. There are lot of things to enjoy, and a lot of good people... so you should fill your time with things you like too.
...Not just trying to find a way to get me back home. [do something for yourself, leon. please. live a little bit.]