[It's silly, really. He should've expected that. That's just incredibly Stahn, and Leon doesn't know why he could have ever thought there would be any other response.
But... it's not what he wants, either. He doesn't want Stahn looking out for him in this, because he still doesn't see this as a good thing. Maybe he's slowly starting to see it less as the worst possible thing ever, but... it's still not a good thing for him. It's not a second chance at life.
It's a chance to make sure that Stahn gets back, but that's mostly all.]
If I don't, who will?
[If Stahn's going to be focusing on other things (as he should be), then Leon will focus on this. It's not a problem; it's hardly unusual for him. If anything, asking him to try to enjoy himself, and meet people, and do things like that... it's contrary to his life thus far, and to his nature.]
Naturally, I intend to focus on our goals. I am more skilled at this anyway. It was only inevitable.
[It's not so different from how they handled things when traveling to take care of Greybaum, right? Leon doesn't see why it's a big deal now.]
You can still enjoy other things while focusing on our goals, Leon.
[he says the words quietly, but they're still firm. stahn doesn't really want to give in on this much—if leon is going to live while he's alive, he has to do more than work. he has to take time to appreciate the other things life has to offer, because... it would be a waste if he didn't.
stahn isn't afraid to say as much, either, though he doesn't initially. the truth is that he's afraid it will somehow devolve into a fight—something he really doesn't want to happen again. fighting... he's tired of fighting. he's tired of fighting with leon, of having petty arguments and disagreements that somehow feel as if they're moving the entire earth just to make a point.]
You shouldn't do nothing but work. [he says it even more quietly, and it's almost a bit pleading, too. he wants more for leon than that, and maybe that's exactly why being told to spend his time freely feels so empty.] We can work together for our goals.
[It would definitely devolve into a fight. As it is, things are getting just a tad bit tenser--because Leon doesn't want to hear any of this. He doesn't care if Stahn helps him and they work together to find a way to get Stahn back, but he doesn't intend to live for anything other than that while he's in Cerealia.
Anything else would just be... some petty attempt at life that he doesn't deserve, and he's not interested in it. He's at least not living the day to day here anymore acting as though there's no reason for him to be there--
But he can't shake the fact that the reason is so that he can help get Stahn back home.
... He just sighs softly, dragging the comb through again; it slides through without any protest, at which point he drops it to the table.]
There. I'm finished.
[With... both the brushing, and the conversation, because he stands then to go.]
[stahn is frowning as leon stands, because he knows exactly why he's being so short about things. maybe if the conversation hadn't gone the way it did, he'd stay in the room a bit longer.
but it's not going to be so easy to get leon to see things his way, is it? even though he wants little more than for him to embrace these chances and not throw away the opportunities he's being given... but leon has always been this way. a one-track mind and completely goal-oriented. stubborn to a fault, and why stahn's sure that eventually, this will change. he's sure that somehow, he can get leon to understand why he feels this way.
it doesn't make it less upsetting to know he's going to walk away from this conversation so abruptly though. even if he wants to fight it, all stahn does is lean forward to reach for the comb while running a hand through his hair and letting out a simple, quiet:] Thanks... Leon.
[he doesn't expect a response though. stahn knows he'll probably just bristle and walk away, and that's why stahn just remains on the sofa, quiet and downcast. he appreciates the help—he just hates how much leon tries to fight everything else that's so good.]
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But... it's not what he wants, either. He doesn't want Stahn looking out for him in this, because he still doesn't see this as a good thing. Maybe he's slowly starting to see it less as the worst possible thing ever, but... it's still not a good thing for him. It's not a second chance at life.
It's a chance to make sure that Stahn gets back, but that's mostly all.]
If I don't, who will?
[If Stahn's going to be focusing on other things (as he should be), then Leon will focus on this. It's not a problem; it's hardly unusual for him. If anything, asking him to try to enjoy himself, and meet people, and do things like that... it's contrary to his life thus far, and to his nature.]
Naturally, I intend to focus on our goals. I am more skilled at this anyway. It was only inevitable.
[It's not so different from how they handled things when traveling to take care of Greybaum, right? Leon doesn't see why it's a big deal now.]
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[he says the words quietly, but they're still firm. stahn doesn't really want to give in on this much—if leon is going to live while he's alive, he has to do more than work. he has to take time to appreciate the other things life has to offer, because... it would be a waste if he didn't.
stahn isn't afraid to say as much, either, though he doesn't initially. the truth is that he's afraid it will somehow devolve into a fight—something he really doesn't want to happen again. fighting... he's tired of fighting. he's tired of fighting with leon, of having petty arguments and disagreements that somehow feel as if they're moving the entire earth just to make a point.]
You shouldn't do nothing but work. [he says it even more quietly, and it's almost a bit pleading, too. he wants more for leon than that, and maybe that's exactly why being told to spend his time freely feels so empty.] We can work together for our goals.
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Anything else would just be... some petty attempt at life that he doesn't deserve, and he's not interested in it. He's at least not living the day to day here anymore acting as though there's no reason for him to be there--
But he can't shake the fact that the reason is so that he can help get Stahn back home.
... He just sighs softly, dragging the comb through again; it slides through without any protest, at which point he drops it to the table.]
There. I'm finished.
[With... both the brushing, and the conversation, because he stands then to go.]
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but it's not going to be so easy to get leon to see things his way, is it? even though he wants little more than for him to embrace these chances and not throw away the opportunities he's being given... but leon has always been this way. a one-track mind and completely goal-oriented. stubborn to a fault, and why stahn's sure that eventually, this will change. he's sure that somehow, he can get leon to understand why he feels this way.
it doesn't make it less upsetting to know he's going to walk away from this conversation so abruptly though. even if he wants to fight it, all stahn does is lean forward to reach for the comb while running a hand through his hair and letting out a simple, quiet:] Thanks... Leon.
[he doesn't expect a response though. stahn knows he'll probably just bristle and walk away, and that's why stahn just remains on the sofa, quiet and downcast. he appreciates the help—he just hates how much leon tries to fight everything else that's so good.]