[it's a little hard for stahn to tell what leon means by those words. "don't ask for something so unnecessary."
he isn't sure if he means that his request for leon to live is unnecessary, or if has to do with believing in him. stahn's head is a little jumbled from everything—from what's been plaguing him in the past days and weeks, and what's being said right now.
if he meant the believing part, was it because leon already believed in him? or was it because he thought it was stupid to believe in stahn—stahn had already failed him a couple of times, after all. at least, that's the way stahn views it. his head dips a little as he tries to process that, and it's not until leon continues what he has to say that he realizes what it is leon means.
it... it did mean that leon believed in him right? that the goals he was setting out to achieve, that leon believed in how badly stahn wanted them, and how hard he would work to try and find those answers?]
I'm going to find it. As long as there's a way... I'm going to find it. [though his tone is shaky and teeters a bit just from the emotional nature of the conversation, the conviction in his voice speaks volumes about how much stahn wants this.] But we won't know what we can do if we don't try.
If we don't try at all... I couldn't forgive myself for it. [he's having a hard enough time forgiving the fact that he didn't—that he couldn't do more to prevent leon from dying in the first place.] Besides... we've already done so many things that should be impossible, so... There has to be a way.
[so believe in him wholly, leon. believe in the efforts he'll make, and how hard he'll work at trying to find out whatever he can in order to ensure that when this is over, leon has somehwere to go; that he doesn't have to live this way where every day seems like a struggle because he thinks he has nothing else to live for.
stahn doesn't want any of that for his best friend, so he'll do what it takes to try and change that fate.]
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he isn't sure if he means that his request for leon to live is unnecessary, or if has to do with believing in him. stahn's head is a little jumbled from everything—from what's been plaguing him in the past days and weeks, and what's being said right now.
if he meant the believing part, was it because leon already believed in him? or was it because he thought it was stupid to believe in stahn—stahn had already failed him a couple of times, after all. at least, that's the way stahn views it. his head dips a little as he tries to process that, and it's not until leon continues what he has to say that he realizes what it is leon means.
it... it did mean that leon believed in him right? that the goals he was setting out to achieve, that leon believed in how badly stahn wanted them, and how hard he would work to try and find those answers?]
I'm going to find it. As long as there's a way... I'm going to find it. [though his tone is shaky and teeters a bit just from the emotional nature of the conversation, the conviction in his voice speaks volumes about how much stahn wants this.] But we won't know what we can do if we don't try.
If we don't try at all... I couldn't forgive myself for it. [he's having a hard enough time forgiving the fact that he didn't—that he couldn't do more to prevent leon from dying in the first place.] Besides... we've already done so many things that should be impossible, so... There has to be a way.
[so believe in him wholly, leon. believe in the efforts he'll make, and how hard he'll work at trying to find out whatever he can in order to ensure that when this is over, leon has somehwere to go; that he doesn't have to live this way where every day seems like a struggle because he thinks he has nothing else to live for.
stahn doesn't want any of that for his best friend, so he'll do what it takes to try and change that fate.]