And that's something that frightens him far more than anything physical ever could. He died already; he knows what awaits him there. He doesn't want to go back to that, admittedly; the longer he's alive, breathing, content, the less he wants to go back to that watery grave under the ocean.
But he's afraid of getting his hopes up and having them dashed. What if he does? What if he does try for this, and fights so hard to have this, and in the end, they...fail? And he has to go back to that--he thinks the disappointment might be too much to bear, though he supposes he wouldn't have to bear it for long.
He'd be dead, after all.
(He can't touch the thought of going back with Otome or Kashuu--there's the chance they wouldn't even want him around, and he can't bring himself to even consider the possibility.
It'd be too good to be true.)]
I...
[He does believe Stahn. He's always believed in Stahn, from the moment Stahn proved how much he cared onward, because he'd really never let Leon down. Leon had let Stahn down in a number of ways, but the reverse had never been true.]
...Don't ask for something so unnecessary. [He already believes in Stahn, so why would Stahn have to ask for it?]
As for the rest, I... [... What is he supposed to do with it?] ...Should you find evidence that such a thing could be possible, then maybe I... [... Maybe he could believe in it.
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He...could be disappointed.
And that's something that frightens him far more than anything physical ever could. He died already; he knows what awaits him there. He doesn't want to go back to that, admittedly; the longer he's alive, breathing, content, the less he wants to go back to that watery grave under the ocean.
But he's afraid of getting his hopes up and having them dashed. What if he does? What if he does try for this, and fights so hard to have this, and in the end, they...fail? And he has to go back to that--he thinks the disappointment might be too much to bear, though he supposes he wouldn't have to bear it for long.
He'd be dead, after all.
(He can't touch the thought of going back with Otome or Kashuu--there's the chance they wouldn't even want him around, and he can't bring himself to even consider the possibility.
It'd be too good to be true.)]
I...
[He does believe Stahn. He's always believed in Stahn, from the moment Stahn proved how much he cared onward, because he'd really never let Leon down. Leon had let Stahn down in a number of ways, but the reverse had never been true.]
...Don't ask for something so unnecessary. [He already believes in Stahn, so why would Stahn have to ask for it?]
As for the rest, I... [... What is he supposed to do with it?] ...Should you find evidence that such a thing could be possible, then maybe I... [... Maybe he could believe in it.
Maybe he'd try.]