Do you have anything to lose if you don't pin any efforts on it? We can't know if it's possible if we don't try?
[maybe that's the part stahn understands least of all in leon's logic. does he have anything to lose? if in the end, their failure ends in leon not existing anymore, returning to his fate being dead...
then stahn is the only person that will truly hurt for that failing in the end. leon himself has nothing to lose, because his tragic fate had ensured that. and stahn, more than anything aside his already-decided duties, wants to do this. it's one of the few things remaining that he has conviction about.
even if he doesn't have all the answers leon is trying to pull out of him.]
We can figure out the rest as we go. If you can't come back home [which is where stahn wants him to be the most, more than anything.], then maybe somewhere else. Maybe Otome, or Kashuu, or one of our other friends will be able to help.
[he falls quiet for a moment; he knows it's not the most convincing argument, and he's having an incredibly difficult time finding the words to convey just how much it means to him. it's hard though, because stahn is not innately good at finding answers. he's good at pursuing the ones given to him, the ones he's worked with his friends to find.]
I just... I want you to live, Leon. [considering he never wanted leon to die. and every time he thinks about the idea of a fate where these experiences are fleeting and those chances are taken away, it makes stahn's chest feel like it's being crushed by the weight of dycroft itself.
it's selfish and childish; he's practically saying "live for my sake as much as your own," and in some way, stahn knows it. it's why even if leon looks up, he won't be able to make eye contact with stahn. he's trying so hard, he's racking his brain for answers he hasn't yet found.]
I want you to believe in me. [that's the other selfish request. to believe in stahn. to believe in his reasons and his cause, to believe in his conviction and his desire to find this kind of chance for leon. to believe in knowing that even if they end up separated by worlds, it's not leaving one another behind just as it's not leaving their other friends behind when they go their separate ways.]
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[maybe that's the part stahn understands least of all in leon's logic. does he have anything to lose? if in the end, their failure ends in leon not existing anymore, returning to his fate being dead...
then stahn is the only person that will truly hurt for that failing in the end. leon himself has nothing to lose, because his tragic fate had ensured that. and stahn, more than anything aside his already-decided duties, wants to do this. it's one of the few things remaining that he has conviction about.
even if he doesn't have all the answers leon is trying to pull out of him.]
We can figure out the rest as we go. If you can't come back home [which is where stahn wants him to be the most, more than anything.], then maybe somewhere else. Maybe Otome, or Kashuu, or one of our other friends will be able to help.
[he falls quiet for a moment; he knows it's not the most convincing argument, and he's having an incredibly difficult time finding the words to convey just how much it means to him. it's hard though, because stahn is not innately good at finding answers. he's good at pursuing the ones given to him, the ones he's worked with his friends to find.]
I just... I want you to live, Leon. [considering he never wanted leon to die. and every time he thinks about the idea of a fate where these experiences are fleeting and those chances are taken away, it makes stahn's chest feel like it's being crushed by the weight of dycroft itself.
it's selfish and childish; he's practically saying "live for my sake as much as your own," and in some way, stahn knows it. it's why even if leon looks up, he won't be able to make eye contact with stahn. he's trying so hard, he's racking his brain for answers he hasn't yet found.]
I want you to believe in me. [that's the other selfish request. to believe in stahn. to believe in his reasons and his cause, to believe in his conviction and his desire to find this kind of chance for leon. to believe in knowing that even if they end up separated by worlds, it's not leaving one another behind just as it's not leaving their other friends behind when they go their separate ways.]