[this is what happens when things go terribly wrong; when stahn can't get out of his own head long enough to be the sunshine they both need to try and get through a tough time, it makes the whole situation awkward.
he's been holding a lot in for leon's sake as much as his own. when the silence falls in the air, stahn sucks in a breath—he knows he should do better, he knows he should change the subject and set the conversation right. leon is trying, but he's not good at this sort of thing, and stahn knows it. it's unfair to him, isn't it? it's unfair to expect leon to carry the conversation when he's already done so much already to try and right what a messy situation they've gotten themselves into.
but before stahn can actually open his mouth to say anything, leon's begun to speak again and... so very quickly, he's fumbling.
—it's not really a bad thing, even if the brief laughter that comes is a bit at leon's expense. it does seem to brighten stahn up a bit, even if it's just because he knows leon cares about a lot of people a lot more than he admits.] It sounds like you've made a lot of friends, Leon.
[whether leon checked on them, or they checked on leon, it's a good thing.]
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he's been holding a lot in for leon's sake as much as his own. when the silence falls in the air, stahn sucks in a breath—he knows he should do better, he knows he should change the subject and set the conversation right. leon is trying, but he's not good at this sort of thing, and stahn knows it. it's unfair to him, isn't it? it's unfair to expect leon to carry the conversation when he's already done so much already to try and right what a messy situation they've gotten themselves into.
but before stahn can actually open his mouth to say anything, leon's begun to speak again and... so very quickly, he's fumbling.
—it's not really a bad thing, even if the brief laughter that comes is a bit at leon's expense. it does seem to brighten stahn up a bit, even if it's just because he knows leon cares about a lot of people a lot more than he admits.] It sounds like you've made a lot of friends, Leon.
[whether leon checked on them, or they checked on leon, it's a good thing.]